I had a dream about monsters last night. There were a bunch of monsters and they were having a race. It was such a close race that there had to be a photo finish.

But I don't remember which monster won.

Happy almost birthday to me! Brian likes to leave things outside of my apartment instead of hanging out with me so when I got home from work today I had things waiting for me:



I got a Katamari hat (wheee, I'm the prince!) and Brian made me a dulcimer so now I have a new instrument to play and also he got me a tub of my favorite cookies from Trader Joe's and a card shaped like a big pickle because he knows I like things that look like penis.

I was kind of hoping that the cookies weren't vegan. But they are. Last time I had some I went through an entire 1 lb. tub in a day. Maybe two. Probably closer to one.

I wanted to get people together to go out to dinner for my birthday but it looks like most everyone that I care about doing stuff with will be away this weekend so I'm postponing my birthday. The end.

So I went to Dexcon and it was a holy lot of fun. I've already talked about it to a few people and I feel like I'm all talked out but there were really awesome things like all of the awesome and creative and totally nice people that were there and the neat games I played (I didn't play as many as I planned but I played Prime Time Adventures and was a murdering mouse working for the fairy tale mob and Ganagagok where I was an astronomer type that ended up going blind and getting killed by the sun to save my peoples from the cannibal ghouls and It's Complicated where I played a man-hating ex-swimsuit model that got a sex change and two games of Misery Bubblegum which was totally my favorite game of the con and I wish I could buy it right now) and buying awesome artwork from Jennifer Rodgers and the girl that draws The Bunny System and buying hentai magazines and general awesomeness with Bret and meeting his friends who all seem like really good people.

We also ate a lot.

So now I'm trying my hardest to lose a few pounds, and have planned out a vegan diet that consists of mostly pretty unprocessed foods and gives me the stuff I need to be eating and I'm going to make sure I set aside time to exercise every day even if it's a little bit. Bret suggested using sparkpeople so I am although I'm also using the Weight Watchers website to make sure I'm within both of their suggestions of how much to eat. So now you can click that link and see what I eat every day. SO EXCITING.

But anyway, I was going to leave Bret's house on Monday morning after he left for work but I had a flat tire. AAA came and put on my spare and then Judd drove me around to get my tire fixed and put it back on for me. It was pretty much the nicest thing that he did that so he's in my book of heroes.

While I was waiting for AAA I sat on the porch with Judd and Janaki and Zorro and Zorro was happy to see me. He's one of my favorite doggies of the moment.

Okay that's the end pretty much. Now I'm back at work and drinking soy milk and wanting to kick things.

So I stopped at the grocery store after work today to get a few things. Apples, oranges, carrots, and bread of some sort. Finding bread that doesn't have yucky stuff in it has become a pain and I really don't even want to eat bread anymore unless I'm making it myself, which I might do soon.

Anyway, I was at the deli looking at pitas because I figured pitas usually have less ingredients than bread and I kept getting in this lady's way, picking up all the pita packages and reading the backs and then grumbling to myself and putting them back down. I tried not to be in her way and I smiled and said excuse me when appropriate, but she looked at me like I was being a bother.

I didn't get any pita breads. But as I was walking away I looked back and she started looking at the backs of all the pita breads too. That made me smile.

So I went to the bread aisle and picked up a loaf of Heidelberg's raisin sunflower bread :o :O

PS: COOOKIES

So I've been reading up on the games that I signed up for at Dexcon (I pretty much just picked things based on what Bret told me) and I'm getting all bouncy excited.

Yep.

I woke up crazy late this morning. But managed to get in on time.

Today it doesn't really matter how disgruntled I am, because it's only one more day of work and then a half a day of work and then I'm driving to Ithaca and then we're driving to New Jersey for Dexcon and it's going to be way fun.

I signed up for a few games when I registered and they sound like much fun. Like uhm. Suitors and Prime Time Adventure and Ganakagok and It's Complicated and With Great Power and Arkham Horror. Phew.

So yeah, eff being disgruntled right now.

Also, Lincoln!

Good morning.

I finally remembered my current recurring dream. I'll have dreams and wake up and know that I've had them before, but I can't remember any details. But all of a sudden it came to me. The really shitty thing about my dreams is that they tend to revolve around the things that I've tried to block out from my past. No symbols, no strange scenery. I just relive the things that I don't want to relive.

This morning I ate toast with earth balance and sliced tomato for breakfast. And watched a transvestite run in high heels better than I've ever seen someone run in high heels. She's awesome.

I've been listening to Jonathan Richman a lot lately, and I really am in love with that man. I used to call his music naive. But I think he knows more about life than a lot of people do. When I listen to him these days I realize that the only person keeping me from having a good life is me.

So a weekend happened and it wasn't very eventful but it was very relaxing, and that's probably more than I could have asked for. I went around on Saturday to make sure people knew I wasn't dead, because I have a habit of disappearing.
I watched baseball. I visited my parents. I bought the prettiest dress I've ever seen ever.

Sunday consisted of nothing. It rained a bunch and I got rained on a bunch and there was a nice breeze and I took a nap. I wanted to be more creative and do some sewing, but that didn't happen.

I also considered getting more tattoos. I've considered getting the ones that Hex designed for me years and years ago that I never got or asking him if he might be able to work on something new for me. I like the way that boy draws.

And now I only have three and a half days of work before I take a couple off. I'm going to Dexcon with Bret and a bunch of his friends and I've signed up to play some pretty rad sounding games. Out of the huge list of things I like about Bret, I like that he does the rpg thing because I've always been too bashful to admit I was interesting in playing too.

I've also had an urge to bake. Chocolate chip cookies. I think I'll make them for our travels. With chocolate chip cookies are the best way to travel, if you ask me. Plus it'll give me an excuse to make another Vegan with a Vengeance recipe.

Over the weekend I talked to some people about what I want to do with my life. Like, a job. I feel like I'm too young to be stuck in something that makes me unhappy. What I really would like to do is work for a college. And take advantage of any classes they might let me take. There are a lot of colleges out there. And a lot of different things I could do with my life.

Just like Jonathan Richman has been telling me all these years.

WHY IS MY DAY GOING BY SO SLOWLY

D:

Awwww yeah

I just wanted to post my new icon from lol_comics

As you were

The people that are working on the elevators in my office building hit a water pipe. So we have no water for the next three to four hours. I have to pee really badly.

My options are:
1) hold it
2) drive somewhere down the road to use their bathroom
3) go out in the woods
4) sink
5) shower room
6) pee my pants

That's actually a lot of options.

1) I've been exercising a lot this week. My body hurts. I like that feeling.

2) Joe told me last night that Joyce Carol Oates is doing a reading at Skidmore tomorrow night. I might go.

So things might suck sometimes, but at least I've got metal on my side.




In other news, a lady at work just gave me a card advertising a vegetarian expo going on in Saratoga in September. Which might be neat. But also might be full of crazies that make me want to not call myself vegetarian/vegan/ANYTHING AT ALL.

In other news, bleh!

I need to mention smoking again.

Because it's really hard not smoking. It's really hard to not get a pack on the way to/from work because I know I'm in for eight hours of stress/have just gone through eight hours of stress.

I'm mostly not smoking right now and I'm trying really hard to be completely not smoking. But holy shit I enjoy the whole ritual. I'm really a creature of routine and my brain misses cigarette breaks a whole lot.

I'm trying to keep the things I've done in mind. I used to be an incredibly unhealthy eater and now I eat lots of healthy foods and follow an increasingly vegan diet.

I used to weigh 130 pounds more than I weigh now.

I used to be really fucking crazy and could barely go outside without being all full of wacky anxiety.

Part of me wants support and encouragement from people but most of me hates talking about quitting. Talking about it only makes me want to smoke more. Beh. I don't know what to do.

So I had a Bret weekend. As usual, it was awesome. It happened that I met someone that's pretty much an incredible person and I'm not entirely sure how it happened but I'm really happy that it did.

The weekend consisted of tempeh reubens, foods at Four Seasons, WALL-E (oh man so so so great) and Get Smart (oh man so so so not great) at the drive-in, House of Frankenstein Wax Museum and Dr. Morbid's Haunted House, foods at Karavalli, Bret being a Pokemon nerd, Killer Klowns from Outer Space, vegan lemon poppyseed muffins, clown porn, pterodactyl porn, and lots of other stuff that leaves me a happy Ellen. I also ate a buttload of watermelon. And downloaded two 3 Inches of Blood albums.

:) :)

Bret Day! 
 
\o/

Chickpea was just doing this again:



I love it when she does that.

ATTN ATTN:

Tomorrow is Bret Day

That makes me happy.

Also:



Okay bye!